Happy New Year (plus three days) to anyone out there in this vast universe that is reading this. As I always appear to be doing, I continue to marinate on all of the tasks I have left undone, all of the places and opportunities I want to explore, and, most importantly, how I want to devote the remainder of my time here on Earth. I am about to receive an email from the California Department of Real Estate, that will allow me to schedule my state exam, and I am very excited about that finally happening. With a new chapter of my life looming in the near future, I am antsy to begin. Part of me wants to quit my job, jump head first into the real estate ocean, and give it everything I have. The other practical part, which also has Hugo’s voice of reason anchored at the core, knows I should get licensed and begin working, while maintaining my current career. Basically, see how it goes before fully committing and risking everything I have worked extremely hard for. In short, it is tough because I feel this entrepreneurial fire burning in my soul and I am resounding to not grab the proverbial fire extinguisher.
Hugo and I finished out 2019 as strong as ever and that is my most proud accomplishment of the year. After nearly sixteen years together, we grew even closer this year. Not an easy feat after so much life together. He has impressed me since the day I met him but the fact that he continues to age so beautifully, both on the inside and on the surface, is astonishing. He has a heart of gold and he pours it into everything he does. He showers me in kindness, care and love in everything he does, from cooking me gourmet vegetarian dishes to listening to me go on and on about my thoughts, fears and goals, on a daily basis. I am so happy to have met him and even more thankful to call him my husband.
As the year drew to a close, we discussed what our collective relationship resolutions would be for this new decade. We celebrated how far we have come and expressed the deep love we have for each other. Love is the most vital aspect of existence and it permeates every culture and all species – we relished in the fact that ours is strong, healthy and meant to be. He is my soulmate and I am his. We looked into each other’s eyes and gazed upon the bodies that house the person we love the most. As we did so, we resounded to continue trying to be better for one another, to communicate more effectively, to finish discussions respectfully rather than destructively engage in arguments, and to always make one another the top priority. I am so impressed with having a partner who wants to keep growing, both personally and as a couple, with me. If after 16 years together we have gotten to this place, I am excited to see where we go from here and lucky to be his wife and partner ♥
My hopes for this year, beyond my career and relationship aspirations, include the following items (some of them may appear cliche and to that I say, yeah!…cliche just means that a lot of people strive for similar things and that only makes me feel more united with those around me): Take better care of myself, physically, mentally and spiritually. Pursue my dreams of having more animals in our family. Garden better and more beautifully around our home, for our visual pleasure and for the love of the thriving hummingbirds and others who call our organic acreage their home too. Explore more of what Los Angeles, the United States of America and our globe has to offer. Try new activities like falconry (we just discussed our plans for this today). Visit more museums and read my unfinished books around the house. And, finally, write more often. All of my wants are positivity-fueled pursuits that are fun to me. In fact, over the past couple weeks, I found my brain dribbling out writing ideas that just kept coming to me – as they did, I jotted down notes on my cell phone, scribbled on scratch paper I have in every room of the house, and typed up email reminders of must-have blog post ideas. My brain and heart want to speak so this audience better get ready to listen.
I wish the world more of what I am blessed to already have. Hopefully you can understand who I am well enough by now to know that I do not intend to appear pretentious when I say that. I only wish love for those without it in their hearts and lives. Many people are walking alone in this world and they crave friendship and romance. To them, I wish them a 2020 filled with new beginnings that will lead to love in their lives. And to those in the world who do not treat others with love, by being unkind, rude, disrespectful, or, even worse, with hate, bias or violence, I wish more love into their hearts as well. If we could all just learn to lead with love, many of our collective world problems would naturally dissipate into a thing of the past. Finally, I wish more love onto all corners of our planet because we abuse her with toxic chemicals, deforestation, hurting the animals and ruining our oceans. As everyone hears every day, we must act now to make significant changes in our world and that begins by loving the place we call home. Let us all resolve to take better care of one another and our beautiful Earth as we embark on this new decade.